“And what purpose did all that suffering serve? What was it all for? Nothing, he decides. Not yet.”

As S. reflects inside the cabin, he identifies Vévoda as a nemesis “who wields exponentially more power than [he] ever will.” He wonders what Vévoda wants. Money? Power? Revenge? S. asks himself how a man who causes so much suffering in the lives of others even sleeps at night. He wonders what the purpose of all the suffering is. “Nothing, he decides. Not yet.” He realizes that in order to make the suffering mean something, he will need to let the world know “about what Vévoda has done and what he capable of doing.” Although he does not know Vévoda personally, he has seen the lengths to which he will go to protect his values.

S. seems obsessed with Vévoda, a man who represents great success at the expense of the perpetual suffering of others. It seems as though his morals are something the amnesia didn’t take away from him. With his realization that he must let the world know of Vévoda’s true nature in order for the suffering to mean something, it looks like good vs. evil is becoming more and more of an apparent theme.

Jen and Eric refer to this page at two different times, with the majority of the notes being from their first time through and the others being from their second time. Most of the blue-black notes are about Eric’s reasons about coming to PSU, and we learn that he came because of Moody:

Did you come to PSU to work with Moody?

Yup. Even though my undergrad advisor told me not to go study w/ someone just b/c he’s a big name. He might be a lousy teacher, too busy, or worse. Did I listen? Of course not.

Jen tells Eric that her sister is coming to PSU for the superficial reasons as well, but her advice to her sister was not well received.

They also take stabs at deciphering another footnote with a couple observations:

Repetitions: nihilist/nihilism

Also: “years+years+years+years” (4x? Is the number 4 relevant??)

She’s (FXC) relentless about MacInnes.