Oh good. Kerinin has come. He ran into Vronsky on his way see me. Vronsky is so scared for my death (as am I). He has been waiting outside all day and night, crying, hoping I am not to die. How I love him.

But Kerinin is here. After all, I do want to see him. I told him I loved our son more than anything. I just babbled in a somewhat delirious state. I want him to know that I had a husband who does not himself know how good he is, he is a truly good man. I am ecstatic of affection for him. He is my husband and I want to make sure we understand each other before I die. I only want one thing, and that is his forgiveness!

Vronsky must also look at Kerinin. He must understand what a man he is to allow our relationship. They too must forgive eachother. How will they understand my love for each of these men, the only way is to see each other before I die.

Oh the pain! Ahhh! Everything hurts. I must sleep.