…you’re never there

Levin and Stepan just left… it is so clear that these men are infatuated with me.  So, where is Alexei?  He is still not home.  He loves throwing it in my face that he has a life separate of me- that I can’t control him.  What is this machismo?  He has to be above or beyond the influence of love?  Why does he think it is better not to need me? The fool!

I just need love! I wait for a divorce that will never come- it is always postponed.  It is all the same.  I invent projects to keep me occupied but it is all the same at the end of the day: he can live without me and I cannot live without him.

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About Elise Hanks

I am a senior Feb at Middlebury and about to complete the Literary Studies major. I recently submitted my senior honors essay that was grounded in American Women Poets, Feminist Literary Theory, Gender Theory, Sexual/Textual Politics, and the creation of poetic self. In the past I have interned for the Department of Education, worked as a Federal Service Student Ambassador at Middlebury College and for the Partnership for Public Service where I was trained in helping students find and apply to federal job and internship opportunities. I have held a leadership role with Page 1 Literary Project, a student organization that organizes programs and events that promote literacy in schools across Addison County, Vermont, for the past two and half years. My other extracurricular interests include intramural sports, dance, poetry, and art.

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