Levin and Stepan just left… it is so clear that these men are infatuated with me. So, where is Alexei? He is still not home. He loves throwing it in my face that he has a life separate of me- that I can’t control him. What is this machismo? He has to be above or beyond the influence of love? Why does he think it is better not to need me? The fool!
I just need love! I wait for a divorce that will never come- it is always postponed. It is all the same. I invent projects to keep me occupied but it is all the same at the end of the day: he can live without me and I cannot live without him.