Lydia, the babysitter, has finally returned my call.  She says I should not go and see my son.  What does she know! I am sure that he misses me and she is only jealous of me.  I am a great mother and she must know it.  But get this, in her text message back to me (she does not even have the nerve to call!) she says that Serioza would be shattered by my presence and that he thinks I am dead!  His ideals shattered!  I will show him true love!  I can’t stand this girl Lydia! I am furious!

AK