So Kerninin is off finding some fancy lawyer. Probrobaly paying millions. Fine by me. I woul like to live wtih Vronsky without worrying about Kerinin. However, I cannot loose my son. I am the one who cares for him. Kerinin has never loved him the way I do.

But enough of that. I am more concerned that I am going to have this dreadful child any day now. Did I mention that I had a dream about dying in child birth? I am convinced my death is immanent. The dream must be true. I deserve death for all I have done. Perhaps it is the ultimate result of my love for Vronsky. I will not survive the birth.