Through my continued reading of Brick Lane by Monica Ali, I noticed how the theme of loneliness and lack of control have developed even further. Nanzeen describes how she is still adjusting to being alone and not having real connections with her family and friends back home. Her apparent fascination with suicide is quite clear as her mind continually swirls with the concept, almost to a point of jealousy. Interestingly, we never see her explicitly act in a way that would convince someone of this obsession; we can only infer this from her narrated thoughts. The same theme is apparent with Nanzeen’s clear discomfort with the large, black wardrobe. Although she makes it clear to Charu that she does not like it, it stays nonetheless. I believe this illustrates Nanzeen’s lack of power with her situation. She didn’t have say in her marriage partner or location. What I found interesting is how the black dresser constantly serves as a reminder to Nanzeen of this reality. Although it is mentioned several times, I found the following passage to be very expressive of Nanzeen’s attitude towards it:
“It was the same every morning. When she opened her eyes beneath the large black wardrobe she had the sensation- a relief in her bones- that the day had finally arrived. Then she strained to remember what the day was, its significance, and she realized that it was a day like any other. This particular morning, without moving from the bed, she ran her hand along the smooth lacquer of the wardrobe door… She had hated it for fifteen years but this had made no impression” (Chapter 12, eBook version)
The symbolic dresser is a proxy for Nanzeen’s loneliness and entrapment. The shape and size of the dresser is eerily close to that of a large coffin. I believe it represents the changes that Nanzeen cannot, or at least has not, made in her life so far. I would definitely like to see Nanzeen eventually destroy the dresser as a way of liberating herself from its hold.
Through Nanzeen’s letters with Hasina, we learn how much she idolizes her sister’s independence and freedom. She longs for that same experience, however, I believe she feels trapped by her own personal inability to allow herself to be free. “Whenever she got a letter from Hasina… she imagined herself as independent woman too. Nanzeen composed and recomposed her replies until the grammar was satisfactory… but Hasina kicked aside all such constraints: her letters were full of mistakes and bursting with life” (Chapter 4, eBook version). There seems to be a fundamental difference between the sisters. Nanzeen’s carefulness and obedience show in her writing, while Hasina’s carelessness and rebellious nature shows just as clearly. Nanzeen admires her sister, even though she admits her unhappiness and struggles with men. As a brother myself, I can very much relate to how Nanzeen feels in these times. Although we are quite similar, my younger brother and I have distinctively different personalities and I believe at certain times we both envy certain character traits that the other possesses.