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Flowers for Brains

It’s June. And there was fresh snow on several nearby peaks this week. Rain has been falling (falling seems a little gentle for some of the days–pelting?) at sea level for days or weeks or years. I’ve lost track.

But luckily for my own sanity, the force that through the green fuse drives the flower seems to be among us.

With Cedar in the lead, it’s been lovely to see a profusion of flowers despite the June gloom.

The phrase “Flowers for Brains” comes from a Ryan Adams song titled “F*ck the Rain.”

Flowers for brains
Permanent sushine
F*ck the rain
All that pain... 

-Ryan Adams

I’m not sure Cedar’s caught onto the gloom. She seems to have room in her brain for plenty more flowers to go with squirrels and porkies and deer and all the things to chase and smell.

Honestly, this whole post might just be a testament to the fact that I haven’t been able to get on the water to fish. Got my boat, and the bill back, today. I’ll take flowers for brains for a bit longer.

Living Like Eagles

We’ve just been through a hot dry spell that many are joking was our summer. On these days, it’s fun to sit on the deck and watch the eagles thermal-ing skyward, like they’re having a competition to see how long they can go without flapping a wing.

During that stint last week two unrelated things happened–both of which are totally unrelated to our protagonist in this blog–but I guess that’s the fun of writing here, seeing the chaos of life through the order(?) of dogness. 

Thing one: I recently re-read Annie Dillard’s wild-minded essay, “Living Like Weasels“. (Have another cup of coffee and give it seven minutes if you don’t know it. Be warned, you might emerge changed.) In “Living like Weasels,” Annie is being Annie, the blown- out-of-your-senses nature contemplator who’s reflections on wild things are themselves wild things.

In “Living Like Weasels” she unpacks an eye-lock with a weasel and starts to fantasize about living with the weasel’s necessity. “I would like to live as I should, as the weasel lives as he should. And I suspect that for me the way is like the weasel’s: open to time and death painlessly, noticing everything, remembering nothing, choosing the given with a fierce and pointed will.”

She goes on to anthropomorphise and couple-o-morphise, in a passage I think of often. “Could two live that way? Could two live under the wild rose, and explore by the pond, so that the smooth mind of each is as everywhere present to the other, and as received and as unchallenged, as falling snow? We could, you know. We can live any way we want.”

Thing two: My friend Mark posted this video of a couple of eagles who succumbed to their passion play. 

It’s always a fascinating sight to watch eagles with locked talons cartwheeling through the air. There are myths that they’re actually mating… Not so… but the aeorbatics can be part of courtship. 

Anyway, this poor couple gives another answer to how two could live… Alive, yes, but pretty beaten up by the valiant attempt to make the “mind of each everywhere present to the other” or at least the kind of grip that tries to will the impossible into existence. The good news is they disentangled, recovered, and flew again.

I remember visiting my friends Dave Hunsaker and Annie Calkins whose house, overlooking Tee Harbor and Lynn Canal, has an eagle nesting tree. They’ve had National Geographic film crews out there filming the eagles taking care of their young, building and rebuilding the nest, etc. Bringing it back to the dog blog, I’ll add that Dave says he once found a cat collar (with a bell to warn birds) in the nest. The collar was still latched. 

Since it’s time to walk Cedar, I suppose it’s time to bring the two things home to dog-ville. Our turn-around point on our daily walk, what I’ve come to call the Wisdom Tree, has a Fish and Wildlife sign on it designating it as an eagle tree. What I’ve recently realized is that not only is our Wisdom Tree protected by federal law, but under an agreement between the Fish and Wildlife Service and the Forest Service, a 330 ft. buffer zone of uncut trees is to be left around each nest tree. We will protect our Wisdom Tree.

Dillard closes her essay with a bit of a weasely pep talk, riffing off the fact that an eagle was found with the jaws of a dead weasel still sunk into its neck.

“I think it would be well, and proper, and obedient, and pure, to grasp your one necessity and not let it go, to dangle from it limp wherever it takes you. Then even death, where you’re going no matter how you live, cannot you part. Seize it and let it seize you up aloft even, till your eyes burn out and drop; let your musky flesh fall off in shreds, and let your very bones unhinge and scatter, loosened over fields, over fields and woods, lightly, thoughtless, from any height at all, from as high as eagles.”

Annie Dillard, “Living Like Weasels”

Cool thought, I guess, but at the moment I’m content with letting my very bones stay connected (but maybe with slightly loosened hinges) so I can keep looking for that one elusive necessity (letting Cedar’s morning detective work inspire me). I’ll stay hinged too, in order to look forward to the next opportunity to watch those dreamy thermal circles. 

Cedar at the Wisdom Tree perched next to the Fish & Wildlife eagle tree placard.

S’áxt’

Another spring mini-season to document. If the early blueberry blossoms are little chimes (or bear bells?) of spring music, s’áxt’ or Devil’s Club are the high-hat cymbals, prickly and menacing beauty flourishing into a new spring canopy.

I’ve been watching the Devil’s Club stalks since mid-March, looking for signs of change. I didn’t see much happen for about a month, except to note that the spines catch gifts of moss and lichens and leaves and snow from the real canopy, hundreds of feet above. And then just after the first blueberry blossoms tinkled through the understory, the s’áxt’ stalk I was watching took on a beautiful pink whose hue was somewhere between rhubarb ice cream and human lips.

Like Frost’s first-green gold, a hard hue to hold. It’s bittersweet–both hopeful and dispiriting– I guess, to see the bulbous “leaf scars” hinting at previous years’ spring crescendos. If O. horridus weren’t such a great Latin name for s’áxt’, I might suggest O. paradoxicus.

S’áxt’ emergence March 18-May 18. Thanks to neighbor Kelli for taking a few shots while I was traveling. : )

They’re all green now. The roots and stalk of the s’áxt’ are some of the most powerful medicine in the Tlingit medicine cabinet and for all indigenous groups in its range. O. horridus is apparently potent, valuable for everything from treating arthritis or cancer or wounds or blindness to changing bad weather to keeping evils spirits outside the home. According Lantz, Swerhun, and Turner, in Western scientific terms, “Phytochemical research has revealed that this plant has antifungal, antiviral, antibacterial, and antimycobacterial properties, and these are undoubtedly related to its widespread use in traditional medicine.” In the case of arthritis, one traditional treatment involves “whole stems used to beat rheumatic limbs as counter-irritant.” I’m not quite there yet. Maybe it’s middle age, but I see life doing something similar to many close to me these days; I guess there’s some hope in the counter-irritant approach. That sweet pink may not be our hue to hold, but we’ll somehow be stronger for the s’áxt’s in our lives? If I had any sense, I’d be hanging it on my threshold.

Tlingit folk have a variety of cultural guidelines around harvesting but s’áxt’ is to be harvested with respect and reciprocity. Eagle clan members often harvest for Ravens, and vice versa.

Apparently, the most powerful medicine is in the roots, and the mini-season of s’áxt’ leaf emergence is when that medicine is traveling up from roots, through the fragrant cambium below the spikes to the giant pricker-lined leaves. S’áxt’ protects itself in part due to the value of the protein in its leaves.

We’ve all been “clubbed” while bushwhacking at one time or another around here. Even Cedar gives a little pause before succumbing to a chomp of the stalk. Maybe I can add another trait to its value: Porky training.

The transformation from stalk to leaf, with that lovely phase of leaves emerging like fingers holding something precious, is complete, and yet another shift making me wish I could slow the passage of time. May is the month to see and feel potential. June it seems, the moment to be lush.

As I write, the mini-season’s ending. The s’áxt’ canopy has pretty much formed. The green guerrilla is in the forest room. The cymbals are cymbaling. The medicine is in the air. And Cedar, my beloved brevity editor (I know, I know, but not bad for a dog), is knocking my elbow away from the keyboard so we can hit the trail.

Flying the Airplane

Approaching the Dutch Harbor airport, about 15 minutes out from the aircraft-carrier-sized landing strip blasted out of mountain during World War II, the cabin full of rowdy fisherman often got silent as the plane dropped, shuddered, slid and battled wind shear. Profanity changed to prayer. I’ve done more “touch and gos” in 737s and smaller planes there than I hope to do in the rest of my life.

I was once flying down in “America” and a couple of off-duty pilots in the seats in front of me were talking about the approach to “Dutch.” I had to intervene. I told them I had lived there and asked them if they hated that route. They responded “No, we love it…” in near unison, and one of them explained “We get to fly the airplane.” 

Lately I’ve been admiring Cedar’s sheer joy in using her body—usually in the snow—and have been thinking she’s out there flying the airplane—doing what she’s designed for, whether it’s running alongside me skiing for a couple of hours straight, wrestle-playing with other dogs, sniffing stories out of the woods, or swimming in the ocean or snow drifts. Using her dog body the way it was designed makes her visibly happy. Tail and body wagging, tongue out, nose down, and whole body somehow smiling. 

A few happy dog moments musically enhanced by Mason Jennings…

I’ve been skate skiing almost daily and I have to say that getting in the groove, letting my body take over, shutting off my noisy brain, feels a bit like flying the airplane, too. 

But like that famous ground crew guy who stole the plane, neither of us has really considered how to land it. 

From the Editorial Board: This is a Dog Blog.

We try to remain behind the scenes and keep our standards as slack as Cedar’s leash should be (ahem), but we’ve recently been alerted to the need to clarify our mission.

This is a dog blog. It is not a cat blog for two important reasons:

  1. Cat does not rhyme with blog,

    and
  2. This.
Read the full text . We had to double check that it was Scientific American and not The Onion.

We are well aware of the dangers of polarized and binary thinking, yet we implore readers to give this research their scrutiny. While it starts out with a “no shit”…

It turns out that cats have a mischievous and somewhat dark reputation in neuroscience. There is research to suggest that a cat’s proximity to other mammals can cause them to behave strangely.

Jack Turban, “Are Cats Responsible for ‘Cat Ladies’? Scientific American, May 23, 2017.

it turns like a cat’s tail accidentally-on-purpose across your face to an “oh shit” …

This feline power has been attributed to a protozoan that lives in their stool, called Toxoplasma gondii (or Toxo for short).

JACK TURBAN, “ARE CATS RESPONSIBLE FOR ‘CAT LADIES’? SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN, MAY 23, 2017.

Turban likely has some cat-loving friends. He shies away from saying flat out that cats can make one crazy, but he does cite some vexing correlations between Toxo, schizophrenia, and psychosis.

We’re not going to mince words here. Cats are sure as hell responsible for cat ladies and probably plenty of cat dudes, too. They know exactly what they’re doing. As a wise friend reminds us, “There’s no ‘I’ in teamwork, but there is a cat in scat.”

(For the sake of unifying our readers, we’ll leave aside for now the emerging theory that cats are Republicans and dogs larger than handbags are Democrats.)

Enjoy your dog blog, please (especially the rhyme, because, well, the reason often eludes us…like that @#$%ing cat).

Back to our irregularly scheduled programming sooner or later. Maybe. – Eds.

Cedar doing her part to sustain her blog.

The Social Trail

Izzy and Joe, who Cedar-sat last month, referred to our “Big Tree Trail” as “The Social Trail.” This made me laugh because in many ways I see it as the reverse: It’s my quiet/solitary place to let Cedar do her thing while I get a little lost in the forest, the world, the quiet. (I guess Izzy and Joe picked up the moniker from Abby, whom I [re]met on the trail when her dog bolted on her and she was calling for him from a nearby neighborhood.) Maybe it would be more of a social trail if Cedar continues to decide to switch hiking partners.

It’s been a full twelve months now of Cedar-inspired rambles, and when I look back on a year of rather self-indulgent posting (but you get pictures, Mom), in a way I can see our rambling path together as a social trail.

We’ve visited with neighbors (begrudgingly when they litter their yards with dog biscuits), met cool folk in yards, on beaches, and on trails.

I think of conversations with neighbor Tom, shoveling out from the blizzard in shorts, weekly (at least) meditations on life with dog Cider’s folks (while Cedar and Cider nearly kill each other in fun). I think of the old man from Douglas who wants to chat all the time about the weather, and who never fails to pay me a compliment about how beautiful Cedar is. I think of Eve, the public defender and pilot and fellow distance-spouse, and of Steve, too, the fix-anything neighbor who brings shepherd Ace (just a month older than Cedar) by for a daily romp. And then there’s Juniper’s grandma, Jenny, who startled me on a stormy morning with unexpected kindness. Cedar’s still eating food gifted by Meghan (a ski trail acquaintance) and the Boxes (RIP, Lucy). These blog posts occasionally elicit a text from Molly or Katie, too, giving us a moment to catch up on life.

Housesitters, Jordan, Tenley, Izzy, Joe, and Ayshe are part of our social trail, too, good souls who love our girl.

Most of these people I never would have come to know without pausing for Cedar’s antics, or without setting out for a stroll with her.

A few highlights from previous posts to mark a year…

But it hasn’t been all roses or dog biscuits, either. Those early fall months of darkness and rain and wind while potty training her weren’t much fun. Cedar has kept my own travel leash short. Over the course of this year of Cedar-life, I’ve lost contact with my favorite hiking partner, we’ve all aged, and we’ve even lost a few friends.

Won’t be long ’til she’s driving.

I’m not sure whether the Cedar blog will continue. Cedar and I will take it day by day, as she keeps trying to teach me how to do that. But as we start our second lap, I’m grateful for a little time with her on the social trail. I’m definitely more of a hermit than is good for me, but she seems to do a decent job of managing our social life.

The more things change…

August, if You Must

I’m back home and it’s August. While most of the country is in what they call the dog days of summer, as I get back in synch with my dog’s days, I’m reminded that our SE Alaska Augusts can be rough. I flew in from Seattle last night, on a plane filled with triathletes coming in for the Ironman. A cool guy named Andy from Minnesota asked, “Is August your hottest month”? We’re all a bit worried about hypothermia in the athletes as the National Weather Service predicts an “atmospheric river” event the next few days. The better part of two hours swimming in 50-something degree water, 6+hours of riding a bike in driving wind and heavy rain, and then… a marathon. The Lab Days of summer is more like it.

Cedar and I just hit the big trees, my first time on the trail since mid-July. The forest smelled like God’s musty basement. July was hard on vegetation and berries. The remaining blueberries tasted like earthy water; some watermelon berries looked and tasted like an acidy purple grape my grandfather used to grow. And some of the salmonberries appeared to have just dripped back into the ground. Better luck next year.

Maybe most ominous were the few yellow Devil’s Club leaves. It’s as if they’re trading in the green for some striking red berries at their tops (that I need to research). Skunk cabbage seems to be giving up defying gravity, ready to accept its watery-muddy fate.

It appears Cedar’s dog days have been excellent, much thanks to Tenley, her new pal, who we’ll say good-bye, and gunalchéesh awaa to tomorrow.

We’ve had a few folks plan visits in August this year. The title of this post comes from the old hurricane warning I grew up with, for sailors considering voyages.

June, too soon. July, stand by. August, if you must. September, REMEMBER! October, ALL OVER!

Retooling this advice for visitors might look something like this:

June, too late. (May is the driest month. But there should be a king salmon or two.). July, Come on by (but bring your rain gear). August, if you must (or if you just want to catch fish). September, REMEMBER (I told you not to come this month unless you just want to catch fish!) October, ALL OVER!

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