Cedar

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Category: May

Living Like Eagles

We’ve just been through a hot dry spell that many are joking was our summer. On these days, it’s fun to sit on the deck and watch the eagles thermal-ing skyward, like they’re having a competition to see how long they can go without flapping a wing.

During that stint last week two unrelated things happened–both of which are totally unrelated to our protagonist in this blog–but I guess that’s the fun of writing here, seeing the chaos of life through the order(?) of dogness. 

Thing one: I recently re-read Annie Dillard’s wild-minded essay, “Living Like Weasels“. (Have another cup of coffee and give it seven minutes if you don’t know it. Be warned, you might emerge changed.) In “Living like Weasels,” Annie is being Annie, the blown- out-of-your-senses nature contemplator who’s reflections on wild things are themselves wild things.

In “Living Like Weasels” she unpacks an eye-lock with a weasel and starts to fantasize about living with the weasel’s necessity. “I would like to live as I should, as the weasel lives as he should. And I suspect that for me the way is like the weasel’s: open to time and death painlessly, noticing everything, remembering nothing, choosing the given with a fierce and pointed will.”

She goes on to anthropomorphise and couple-o-morphise, in a passage I think of often. “Could two live that way? Could two live under the wild rose, and explore by the pond, so that the smooth mind of each is as everywhere present to the other, and as received and as unchallenged, as falling snow? We could, you know. We can live any way we want.”

Thing two: My friend Mark posted this video of a couple of eagles who succumbed to their passion play. 

It’s always a fascinating sight to watch eagles with locked talons cartwheeling through the air. There are myths that they’re actually mating… Not so… but the aeorbatics can be part of courtship. 

Anyway, this poor couple gives another answer to how two could live… Alive, yes, but pretty beaten up by the valiant attempt to make the “mind of each everywhere present to the other” or at least the kind of grip that tries to will the impossible into existence. The good news is they disentangled, recovered, and flew again.

I remember visiting my friends Dave Hunsaker and Annie Calkins whose house, overlooking Tee Harbor and Lynn Canal, has an eagle nesting tree. They’ve had National Geographic film crews out there filming the eagles taking care of their young, building and rebuilding the nest, etc. Bringing it back to the dog blog, I’ll add that Dave says he once found a cat collar (with a bell to warn birds) in the nest. The collar was still latched. 

Since it’s time to walk Cedar, I suppose it’s time to bring the two things home to dog-ville. Our turn-around point on our daily walk, what I’ve come to call the Wisdom Tree, has a Fish and Wildlife sign on it designating it as an eagle tree. What I’ve recently realized is that not only is our Wisdom Tree protected by federal law, but under an agreement between the Fish and Wildlife Service and the Forest Service, a 330 ft. buffer zone of uncut trees is to be left around each nest tree. We will protect our Wisdom Tree.

Dillard closes her essay with a bit of a weasely pep talk, riffing off the fact that an eagle was found with the jaws of a dead weasel still sunk into its neck.

“I think it would be well, and proper, and obedient, and pure, to grasp your one necessity and not let it go, to dangle from it limp wherever it takes you. Then even death, where you’re going no matter how you live, cannot you part. Seize it and let it seize you up aloft even, till your eyes burn out and drop; let your musky flesh fall off in shreds, and let your very bones unhinge and scatter, loosened over fields, over fields and woods, lightly, thoughtless, from any height at all, from as high as eagles.”

Annie Dillard, “Living Like Weasels”

Cool thought, I guess, but at the moment I’m content with letting my very bones stay connected (but maybe with slightly loosened hinges) so I can keep looking for that one elusive necessity (letting Cedar’s morning detective work inspire me). I’ll stay hinged too, in order to look forward to the next opportunity to watch those dreamy thermal circles. 

Cedar at the Wisdom Tree perched next to the Fish & Wildlife eagle tree placard.

S’áxt’

Another spring mini-season to document. If the early blueberry blossoms are little chimes (or bear bells?) of spring music, s’áxt’ or Devil’s Club are the high-hat cymbals, prickly and menacing beauty flourishing into a new spring canopy.

I’ve been watching the Devil’s Club stalks since mid-March, looking for signs of change. I didn’t see much happen for about a month, except to note that the spines catch gifts of moss and lichens and leaves and snow from the real canopy, hundreds of feet above. And then just after the first blueberry blossoms tinkled through the understory, the s’áxt’ stalk I was watching took on a beautiful pink whose hue was somewhere between rhubarb ice cream and human lips.

Like Frost’s first-green gold, a hard hue to hold. It’s bittersweet–both hopeful and dispiriting– I guess, to see the bulbous “leaf scars” hinting at previous years’ spring crescendos. If O. horridus weren’t such a great Latin name for s’áxt’, I might suggest O. paradoxicus.

S’áxt’ emergence March 18-May 18. Thanks to neighbor Kelli for taking a few shots while I was traveling. : )

They’re all green now. The roots and stalk of the s’áxt’ are some of the most powerful medicine in the Tlingit medicine cabinet and for all indigenous groups in its range. O. horridus is apparently potent, valuable for everything from treating arthritis or cancer or wounds or blindness to changing bad weather to keeping evils spirits outside the home. According Lantz, Swerhun, and Turner, in Western scientific terms, “Phytochemical research has revealed that this plant has antifungal, antiviral, antibacterial, and antimycobacterial properties, and these are undoubtedly related to its widespread use in traditional medicine.” In the case of arthritis, one traditional treatment involves “whole stems used to beat rheumatic limbs as counter-irritant.” I’m not quite there yet. Maybe it’s middle age, but I see life doing something similar to many close to me these days; I guess there’s some hope in the counter-irritant approach. That sweet pink may not be our hue to hold, but we’ll somehow be stronger for the s’áxt’s in our lives? If I had any sense, I’d be hanging it on my threshold.

Tlingit folk have a variety of cultural guidelines around harvesting but s’áxt’ is to be harvested with respect and reciprocity. Eagle clan members often harvest for Ravens, and vice versa.

Apparently, the most powerful medicine is in the roots, and the mini-season of s’áxt’ leaf emergence is when that medicine is traveling up from roots, through the fragrant cambium below the spikes to the giant pricker-lined leaves. S’áxt’ protects itself in part due to the value of the protein in its leaves.

We’ve all been “clubbed” while bushwhacking at one time or another around here. Even Cedar gives a little pause before succumbing to a chomp of the stalk. Maybe I can add another trait to its value: Porky training.

The transformation from stalk to leaf, with that lovely phase of leaves emerging like fingers holding something precious, is complete, and yet another shift making me wish I could slow the passage of time. May is the month to see and feel potential. June it seems, the moment to be lush.

As I write, the mini-season’s ending. The s’áxt’ canopy has pretty much formed. The green guerrilla is in the forest room. The cymbals are cymbaling. The medicine is in the air. And Cedar, my beloved brevity editor (I know, I know, but not bad for a dog), is knocking my elbow away from the keyboard so we can hit the trail.

Of Course

This morning, as the old spruce that’s the turnaround on our walk made us feel small, I did as I often do and paused for a few breaths there below what a friend calls “the Wisdom Tree.” On the way to the tree this first week in May, I took note of the shin-high twisted stalk, the unfurled fiddleheads, the extra bright green Baby Tooth Moss, bunchberry dogwood mottled from the other night’s freeze, and Devil’s Club buds like coiled springs about to explode out of their stalks. I’d call it high spring.

I do watch what thoughts and feelings and sometimes words float up from Lord knows where during these treeside pauses. Cedar, I’m sure, is happy for the extra nose time. This morning I was treated to the simple phrase “of course.”

Mind you, this old tree probably stores a lot of knowledge, but its expertise is more in growth rings than grammar. Really, “of course” is a phrase we could do without. The experts, who I’m guessing totally suck at growth rings, call it an “objectionable phrase”. I, however, appreciated this gift from the old codger because it reminded me that “of course” is to me a phrase of attunement—a phrase we can use to recognize others’ emotions and needs and why those make sense. I find myself thinking it a lot and saying it occasionally these days.

  • Of course this creek is flowing right here. It’s a creek and this is its course. 
  • Of course you miss her. Humans love to be together. 
  • Of course you feel heartbreak; things do fall apart. 
  • Of course Cedar is obsessed with fetching. She’s a retriever. 

The old Wisdom Tree was likely here before any of the things that are now pushing up new things nearby. Tree size helps me see time in the woods; it’s fun to consider the sequence of inhabitants by their size. Even some of the largest of Wisdom Tree’s neighbors were not there when it first started its sun salutations. 

“Is he losing it?” you ask. “Taking life instructions from an old tree?” 

Of course. But I can report that lost things tend to show back up–admittedly sometimes a little changed–in the forest. 

Time and Luff

Please allow me a moment to grieve about something completely unimportant before I get to this most important message: The Bruins are out of the playoffs.

I happened to catch David Pastrnak’s “press availability” on the Monday after the fall, and was blown away by what went down at the end, when the reporter snuck in “How did you get through this year?” (Pastrnak and his partner, Rebecca Rohlsson, lost their 6-day old son last June.) Indulge me and scroll to 3:56.

I won’t reduce that beautiful statement from a kid with more than just swagger to dog training, but I will say that maybe that’s the biggest thing I’m learning from our pup as we try to teach each other.

Is This Thing On?

Life’s busy. So here, in bullet points, is some of the news nowhere near fit to print. But you–pretty sure Molly is the last one reading–are a captive audience, and time’s passing in my little Mud County Almanac, so here goes.

  • Takin’ it easy ain’t so easy. We’re in week two of spay recovery, and we are following one set of doc’s orders to a T: No swimming. The taking it easy bit? Well, we did what we could. She still looks a bit like a July humpy, but she seems as ready to run and jump and rumble as ever, and I have to say, my tolerance for leash walks may be lower than hers.
  • First two boat trips were a success, if only a few keeper crab harvested. Cedar was in fact wildly excited as we backed down the ramp, but maybe that was because she thought she might get to swim.
  • She did growl at a little boy as we came off the boat. I need to get her more little kid time.
  • Garden’s planted. I will once again prove that the only thing that won’t turn green in SE Alaska summers is my thumb.
  • First bear video of the season, thanks to Molly and Steve. (I had just walked past that area 30 minutes before, and Steve actually walked past the bear carrying poor Lucy, RIP, who went on to a place where all the bears are friendly two days later.)
  • Robins have apparently hatched, Devil’s Club is unfolding with an eerie sort of power, Skunk Cabbage is starting to look the radioactive vegetables on Gilligan’s Island, ad we are in fifth gear GREENing mode.
  • Tim’s commencement ceremony is next Sunday, Katie finishes her first year of college. Katie will soon be home to help with Cedar duties (right Kate?).
  • Next Friday, we say our formal good byes to Paul McKenna. We’ll gather as a family on Great Herring Pond in Plymouth, his spirit-place, where he and my mom and maybe even the lake helped us form our notions of life and family and hope. (The life part always included a dog.)

A few more images from the week.

Sea Legs

Bro Dave and I had four extra sea legs on board for the shakedown cruise last night. Both boat and leg-bearer fared well. Cedar has a future in being our onboard bait-tester. She approved of last night’s crab bait, no question, with a slight preference for chicken parts over herring.

We’ll see how she processes any harvest data.

Honestly, I think she’ll be good company on the water, in a sweet-nuisancy kind of way.

May Day, Spay Day

Well, the hummingbirds are here. A black bear sow with three cubs is frequenting the meadows near the dump. And the salmonberry blossoms are pinking their pink. But the big news chez Cedar is that she’s supposed to do something called “taking it easy” and there will be no swimming for two whole weeks, or just over 5% of her time on earth (and in the water) to date. Oh well. At least there won’t be Cedar saplings.

Home Though

In my second year as a teacher 30 years ago, I taught a class that I still need to learn from. A group of kids in the Aleutians and I developed a youth-edited weekly publication that kids in the K-12 school clambered to read every Friday. It was a quirky little juried collection of non-fiction narratives, edited with an emphasis on brevity. (I know, how did Mr. McLongwinded ever pull that off? Luckily, most kids are surprised when a teacher asks them to just be honest instead of adding fluff.)

Josh, a beyond-quiet, quiet kid wrote this piece for our second issue.

Today, as I get my bearings back home after a couple of weeks away, I’m thinking of the word “though” in his final line, “It was home, though.” It’s amazing and kind of cool how we put up with all kinds of dissonance and quirks and things we don’t get or like when our minds and hearts find home.

If there’s any one theme in this blog, I suppose it’s a dog teaching her human how to find home.

What’s changed in my absence? Not much and a whole lot. The “unfolding” is still going on in the woods. (We both snacked on the big tree trail this morning; I on some fiddleheads and Cedar on some Twisted Stalk (watermelon berry) leaves. The skunk cabbage is starting to show its Brobdingnagian genes. The varied thrush have apparently purchased all of the available frequencies for forest radio. And the blueberry and salmonberries are pantomiming their “Nothing Gold Can Stay” routines.

The big shift I got to chuckle about this morning is that Cedar is now the experienced one on the trail. She knows more about May’s greening in this particular center of the universe than I do. I hadn’t even seen the Twisted Stalk until she began her leaf chewing this morning.

Cruise ships are here. Katrina is 900 miles away. People on Juneau Community Collective, the meanest place on the internet, are arguing that “Collective” in the name should be changed because it’s “too communist,” the maritime ghetto (as Katrina calls my side yard) is calling for attention, the rains will be back soon, chinook populations are endangered, the glacier is receding, and I can’t get ahold of the vet about you know who’s spay appointment on Monday morning.

It is home though. And it’s nice to be here again.

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